Makeup, MMOs, Me & More.

My obsession with makeup, online fantasies, etc.


I pulled an all-nighter last night, trying to make four Xmas cards for my POOP, Mommy, Daddy and Koonya. What fun. And I tried to do it all while sitting around on Maple waiting for Papulatus Clock to spawn.

I really wanna sleep. :(

But now we have to start getting ready to go out for dinner to celebrate POOPY's birthday.

Happy 20th Birthday to my POOPY! I love her!

Oh my gawd. My aunt is watching Maury on TV. Oh geez. Women crying like crazy 'cuz they slept with another man during the time they got pregnant... Stuff like that.

It's so dramatic. Are they really crying like that? They enjoy people watching them cry?


And then I hear that same commercial for Everest College (I think). Lol. Over and over again.

I'm wondering why I'm getting annoyed so easily with everything tonight. I think it's because I have to make friggin' holiday cards for all the Thai newspaper people and whoever else I know. Great. And the hard part is my mom taking forever to choose a pic of me to put on the front of the card and buying ink for the printer.

And I thought I would feel all peaceful and unstressed this weekend because I finished all my psych stuff early this week. :(

I Googled CrescentGirl and the results were interesting. Interesting to see who else other than me has made CrescentGirl their identity.

There's this Russian girl, fifteen and from Moscow, I think. She's really, really pretty. I really like how she made all of her avatars .gif animated. They've got a glow effect.

There's another Russian girl whose name is also crescentgirl, but I didn't bother to read much about her. C'mon, it was in Russian, and I forgot all of my Russian. Makes me want to refresh again.

Then there's this girl who I assume lives in Singapore, because she goes to Crescent Girls' School. I can understand where she got her name from. Lol.

I remember playing on MapleSEA when I was in Thailand, and I ran into this guy. He seemed to have something against me just because of my name, CrescentGirl. He thought I was from Singapore, but I guess I surprised him when I said I'm American. He thought I went to Crescent Girls' School.

Tired. Sleepy.

I'm sad!!

Today was our last day of archery. I was hoping it would be really good, but NO!!! I shouldn't have worn my nice, cute little hat to class today! Now look what happened!!

The pom-pom came off! TT__TT It came flying off just as I shot my first arrow!!! I can't wait until Mommy gets home so she can fix it for me! *cries*

I'm gonna be so sad until it's fixed!

I'm really not too happy about waking up at 8:00 am for a video shoot. *sigh* I'm tired now. Thinking about tomorrow makes me feel dead tired already. :( I really don't like work.

Finally, the big time period of major stress has finally passed. From this point on, it's just reading for psych and turning in the assignments every week, one last meeting of archery on Friday. I just gotta study a little for the written part of the archery test.

I looked at the grades online just now. Looks like I have an A- in physics, and I think an 89% in chem. I really hope that he'd just make that 89% an A-. PLEEEEEEEEEASE!!!! With pure luck, I got an A- in stats. I really don't want chem to ruin my "A" streak! I don't care if they're A-s. They surely look better than B+s.

I'm really not sure what I'm getting for psych currently, but I really hope that psych will be at least an A- too. I hope archery will be an A- at least too. I have no idea how archery will turn out. It's supposed to be a fun class! Does there really have to be a bad grade to ruin everything for me?

I'm so tired. I have to help Justin out with the music video shooting again tomorrow morning. :( But I'm tired. But last time was fun, so it shouldn't be that bad, 'cuz now I don't have a final to worry about. :)

Now that all my major classes are done, I'd like to have time to read fun stuff and scrapbook. Oh, and most importantly, Maple and learn how to play the Maple Trading Card Game.

It's 2:01 AM already, but I'm glad that I've finished my psych reading for the week. I'm working hard so I can get all this stuff done so I don't have to worry about the freakin' deadlines like last time. All I need to do tomorrow is to write up my response to the discussion question and the career assessment writing assignemnt. After that, it's to finish my chem homework. I'm going to try to get through all the lectures if possible.

Daddy wants to go shooting earlier than ever tomorrow. I want to go shooting, and that's why I'm going. I just hope I don't feel like crap 'cuz I'm sleeping so late!

I guess we're picking up the HSC (Handgun Saftey Certificate) cards tomorrow.

Yay! I'm happy there's no more physics lab! It's so long, and the teacher explains so much more than he needs to. That takes up most of the time in lab. But thank goodness he cut the lab short, and there was no conclusion or questions. It's a good lab too. Also, I got a good partner too - Desiree. She's cool. I even told her about that teacher trying to ask me out. It was funny.

Right after lab, I walked out of the chem building with her, and we separated once we got inside the library. I got to the 4th floor, and ran into a student who was in anatomy lab with me last quarter (Adam's lab). Her and her friend are going to do nursing. I asked them about the TEAS test and her friend said she already paid for it, but we can't sign up until December.

Maybe I should go over to the nursing department before class to figure out more stuff about it. Going to CSUSB Nursing doesn't sound so bad to me, even if it's three years. I think it would be a good pace for me. Two years at Loma Linda is fast, but I'll run into some students I've seen before here at CSUSB, not Loma Linda. I dunno. Any nursing school will do for me.

I can't wait to be a proud nursing student. Nursing is all I can think of. I know it sounds kinda obsessive of me, but it's really important I think about it all the time so I don't slack off. I still feel like I am, though.

I'm in the library now. I should study. Without much thought, I took out my physics book so I can study that. I don't wanna be so lost in that class anymore, so I'll start reading that. Physics is more interesting, and doesn't cause me as much stress, so I'll do that after maybe, or maybe I'll watch the chem lectures. I took the ear buds from my iPod with me so I could watch the lectures on my laptop in the library.

Wow. It's so much easier to type today. It's 'cuz I trimmed my fingernails on Sunday. I feel so much more free like this. Don't have to worry about breaking my nails or something. Yeah, I'm a bit paranoid.

Man, I don't know why I'm so easily stressed out! Let's list all the things I need to do from this point on to feel confident about my grades this quarter:

1. Read physics lab for tomorrow.
2. Do physics homework chapter 9.
3. Read psych chapter 12
4. Do psych quiz and discussion questions.
5. Watch chem lectures.
6. Do homework for chapters 23 and 24.
7. Catch up on reading for stats.
8. Catch up on reading for chem.

That's a lot. Everytime I have a task on the list - even if it's just one - I get all stressed.

It's just just this, but I have register for the CNA program at Chaffey on Friday, and figure out what I need to do to take that TEAS test that nursing programs require. I have to start thinking about applying for nursing school next fall now.


I want some spare time to play Maple without a worry. I wanna learn how to play with my new Maple trading cards. I wanna finish reading Harry Potter. I wanna re-read A Brief History of Time again, along with The Universe in a Nutshell right after. I have to finish reading the book Justin let me borrow, A Holographic Universe. I wanna scrapbook! I'd like to make holiday cards from all my scrapbook supplies.

Yep, so many things I need and want to do.

Oh yeah, and don't forget... I want more nice stuff from Cryoflesh! It's my favorite clothing store. Too bad it's online. :(

I showed Mommy the stuff I wanted from it, and it turned out that she didn't like most of the stuff I wanted to have. I'm disappointed. How am I supposed to get them now? *cry*

Today was the first time I've used a semi-automatic gun. This is a Glock 35! It's more complex than a revolver. I wonder what kind of gun they use in Silent Hill.

I'm much better with a .357 magnum revolver than a Glock 35 shooting from 50 ft.

The moment I got on the freeway, I started having second thoughts about going to class. Thanksgiving weekend starts tomorrow, and I know every place is going to be hectic this whole week - shopping malls, grocery stores, airports... What fun.

But here I am, in physics lecture, writing a blog entry rather than listening to physics facts and ideas.

CB wants to buy me stuff. I was looking around on Cryoflesh for all the things I want, and boy, do I want a lot of stuff to add to my wardrobe! I guess I'll have to post my wishlist up later.

I was at Justin's house last night. I met Summer, who I haven't seen in years! She's all grown-up and mature now, and she just got a job at CPK (California Pizza Kitchen). A bit different, but she's still energetic as usual. She's gotten pretty too.

Justin showed me some cool games he's been playing. One of them was Hellgate: London, which looked really cool 'cuz of the wonderful graphics and I've always had a thing for guys dressed like S.W.A.T. team members with big guns in their hands. All that armor and weapons. It's hot. So you're playing a shooter, and you're blasting away at zombie-like mosters and weird flying things that you could imagine came from hell.

He showed me another game, I forgot what it was called, but it was a complex strategy game like StarCraft, but much more complex and wonderful graphics. Looks like strategy is his thing. He seems to like it a lot. Justin said that right now, we don't have any computers that were made to handle graphics like this game. Whoa.

Gee, it's freezing in this lecture hall.

After Justin showed me some of his games, I spent the rest of the night playing Silent Hill 2 as he watched and gave me a back massage for a little while. He gives excellent back massages.

Good times.

I told Daddy that I would be home at 10:00 PM, but time passed by so fast, and I forgot to turn my phone's sound back on after class, so I got tons of voice messages from Daddy when I looked at my phone again. Obviously it was time to go home.

That's it.

I have sooooo much reading, homework, and studying to do this week. So much! I hope I get that done with time left over to play Silent Hill. :( I've been missing that game so much.

Something super awkward happened just an hour ago. Guess what?

I have physics lab every Tuesday from 1:00 PM to 4:00 PM. Starting two weeks ago, I started seeing this guy come into the classroom to visit my physics professor towards the end of class. He's been coming into the classroom ever since. In and out.

I did notice he likes to look and smile at me a lot. I thought it was because he saw that I looked like one of those ideal students that a teacher would want in his class - always wants an A, and asking questions and looking for answers.

The first day I saw him in class he was standing right there next to me as I asked my teacher about my midterm grade. Since he was nearby, I didn't want to just block him out of the teacher's conversation completely, so I introduced myself to him and asked, "So you're in the physics department too?"


I guess his glances toward my direction must've been about something else as well. Today, I saw him walk in and out of our lab room. He would come out of the door from the back of the room and it seems to me he was passing by my and my partner's table more often.... Trying to look like he was checking out how we're doing on our labs. He came by once while me and my partner were working. He stopped at our table another time as I was finishing up my last sentence for my conclusion.

He stopped and stood on the same side of the table I was on, look right at me and said, "I was wondering..."

There was an awkward pause, and he was looking straight at me... I knew this meant some kind of amazing special question was coming up. I was thinking, "Uh oh."

"...Will you go out with me?"


I was like, "OMG. Now what?" So I said, "Sorry, I'm not interested in seeing anyone right now. I'm really worried about school and stuff. Sorry..."

Not sure what happened after that. I guess he nodded and was like, "Okay." He then disappeared into the hallways. Gone.

I felt kinda bad. I don't like saying no, but I really don't wanna go out with an older guy like that. It's awkward. Plus, I'm with CB.

Before he left, I asked him his name. James. All I know is that his name is James, and he works in the physics department. He looks Asian, wears glasses. I think he's a professor. He's about middle-aged....or maybe around late thirties, early forties.

Okay, he's not a professor. He's a lecturer/instructional support technician. But still... No.


I got my second stats midterm back last week. 77%! No!!! I missed 10/13. :(

Gun competition two weekends ago. Fun! I thought I did pretty well. I was confident that I would get a trophy, just don't know which one. I'd be happy enough getting something. My dad was proud of me though. That's all that matters.

"Sherry, don't worry about that guy shooting better than you," said Daddy. "He had a modified gun."

"I thought you weren't supposed to have modified guns in the competition," said Mommy.

So I didn't feel bad.

I wanted the big trophy, but I was sure I wouldn't get it. It turns out that the big trophy was for the best team. I only did solo, but I feel good about that. Don't have to worry about people bringing each other down with their bad shooting. :)

I was disappointed that they didn't have the scores to announce until the end of the week. Everyone would supposedly find out who won and who placed by reading the newspaper. We all had to go to the party last Saturday to get the trophies.

What a good night it was. I made my parents proud.

I won first place in the women's division! :D Yay!


This last Sunday, me and Daddy went to Bass Pro Shops Outdoor World to look at guns, ammo and targets. We picked a number so we could look at the guns, but it was taking forever, so we didn't get served. We even walked all over the place, looking at archery stuff and other stuff. We came out with a pack of those green splattering adhesive targets, a pack of bright orange adhesive targets and Turkey, my new member of the family in my room. SEAL, Mallard and BOO have a new friend now!

We went to Magnum Range again, and that was fun. I love the green splattering targets 'cuz I can see where I hit from far away! I found that these bright orange target spots really do make a difference. My groups are so much smaller! I'll have to try it from 50 ft to make sure. The super-nice group in the picture was from only 20 ft.

I'm just happy I'm shooting better every time.

Statistics: 100%

Physics: 18/25 = 72% (but somehow the teacher considered this range to be an A-)

Chemistry: 135/150 = 90%

I don't know what happened with physics.

And I just finished the psych stuff just now. I turned in Assignment 2 (a paper about gender roles portrayed in a children's storybook) hours ago, did the Ch 8 quiz without reading the whole thing and got a 14/20, as opposed to getting 17/20 or 18/20, and hurriedly wrote up the discussion board response and stupidly wasn't paying attention to the clock so I ended up turning it in one late. This sucks. I didn't have very much time to read at all, but still... I know I can do so much better than this.

Next time. More assignments, more exams. More points.

Finally, that chem exam is finally over with. I hope I did okay on it. Likely to be either an A or B, but I'll be disappointed if it isn't an A. And really sad if it's a C. I don't wanna go back to Cs again.

So that test is done, but I still have so much more work to do. And my parents want to drag me all the way to the Thai temple in North Hollywood to exchange the karaoke and watch the Thai pageant and eat Thai food with them. Great. Psych is the most time-consuming homework of all these classes because of all the reading, and this week I have a writing assignemnt to do. *sigh*

And now Mommy just called and told me to make a birthday card for Charles and Rowan, the sons of Auntie Wheng, one of the ladies at work.

So many things in my way. The many tasks I have to do... That's all I can think about.

At least when I have a little bit of spare time, I'll just read some of those childrens' books I checked out from the library today. I wish I got more cool books as presents when I was a kid.

Studying so hard on chem. I might have to take it on Saturday after all. Just to be safe.

I'm in stats class right now. We talked about experiments, and now we're going over probability. I'm so stressed out about everything in general right now. Midterms, getting into nursing school, and my career..... and life.

I've decided that...

My textbooks are now my best friends. Especially my chem book. We're going to be temporarily married. Gotta give the chem book some love so I hopefully get an A in organic and biochem.

I hope I can get all this studying done before the test. I'd rather take it on Thursday.

Then we have a review in physics lecture today. The physics midterm is on Wednesday.

How unfortunate. I didn't get to study as much as I hoped this weekend. Blame it all on the karaoke machine!

Daddy is on his way home. I bet he's hurrying home so he can karaoke again! I have to say, but that little karaoke device is one of the greatest party toys I have ever seen. It's called MagicSing. Not sure which model though. It's even better with those Yamaha speakers we bought from Sam Ash yesterday.

I think I ate way too much. By the time Mommy called me to ask what I wanted from El Pollo Loco, I was already eating my second and last slice of pizza... -_- But I liked Grilled Chicken Nachos, so I had to order some. Bad idea.

I'm feeling kind of overwhelmed. Got mixed up feelings. I feel good and bad.

I have two midterms next week - physics and chem. I'm worried about both of them a lot, because I have no idea what the tests are like. They're multiple choice, but I just hope it's as simple as the test in my stats class. Simple and straight-forward, and mostly conceptual. I can deal with the concepts. Doing problems could be a problem - word problems and such. I don't like having to memorize equations. But it probably shouldn't be so bad, right?

I finally decided to take advantage of the self-study stuff online that came with my chem book. Hopefully that will help me get some more of the basics down.

And then I'm worried that if I choose to take the chem exam on Saturday, that would not leave me any time to shoot or to do my psych homework. :(

...My mom is always having trouble singing karaoke to her favorite songs down there.

Okay, so we bought this new karaoke machine. It's really small and lightweight. I think it's really good. It's got at least 2000 songs in that little chip. My parents also got another chip that has a bunch of Thai songs. And we're thinking of getting more! It's that karaoke machine that has a the scoring system on it. I'll never understand how that thing scores our singing.

Well, that machine was bought last night. After shooting today (and today, Ed, the super-talkative guy who works at Daddy's shop, came all the way out here in Rancho to shoot with us today! Daddy says he's still not as good as I am, whether he used our gun or his gun, even at 25 ft), Mommy and Daddy bought two huge speakers for better sound quality. Our Bose speakers couldn't handle our microphones.

We're just getting karaoke hardcore.

Oh, I thought Ryan (the young guy at the gun range) dressed very nice today, so I complimented him. It's a nice look. Besides, I think Asian guys are more appealing to me than white guys.

This new karaoke thing has so many songs in it. I'm sure anyone could come to my house and know how to sing at least a few songs. It's got old and newer songs. But too bad it's not as new as in the lastest pop songs currently playing on the radio. Wouldn't it be cool to have a karaoke for EBM songs? Haha. All that bass you're gonna hear from the speakers! Awesome!

I just remembered that we have tambourines somewhere. Two of them. They must be in that storage shed outside in the backyard.

Man, I don't know whether I should do this psych paper first, or study chem or physics. But the psych paper deadlines is last, so I guess I'll take my time on that. The paper doesn't look too hard to write either. I have to choose a children's book and write about the gender roles of the characters in the book. I'm debating whether I should write about Little Chick's Easter Treasure or The Hiding Beast.

I love how Blogger autosaves my entry for me. No more of that losing-all-that-stuff-I-worked-so-long-writing!

Didn't take pics at the gun range today. Oh well. I hope have a really good pic and video of me showing my excellent shooting skills one day. I'd proudly post it online!

CSUSB is closed for the rest of the week! ...More time to study!

This fire is crazy, especially because of the winds. Feels like fire and winds happen ever year or something.

I want more cool clothes!


I love him......lots.

I didn't get as much studying done as I wanted to. But even after those couple hours of studying, I feel a little better about the test. It wasn't just two hours of studying - it was a productive two hours. I made sure it was real studying, not just looking over stuff. I practiced calculating the problems out. I made sure I knew what was going on with the problems.

I think I'm only half-way through.

I've been thinking about beauty pageants a lot lately. Nowadays, people are becoming more liberal and open-minded. It's hard to judge beauty, really. Beauty is so much more than looks now. It's intelligence, personality, communication skills... The pageants all say they look for that, but there really is no "most beautiful woman in the world". It's just not possible because every person has a different opinion. Everyone judges differently.

Beauty is something that just can't be judged. Just appreciate it.

This morning I went to Chaffey to get a hearing and visual exam for my CNA physical exam. They checked my blood pressure, and they said it was low. "Is it usually that low?" the nurse asked.

"I'm not sure," I said. "They checked it when I was here last time last week and they said it was kinda low."

"Do you get tired often?"

"Not really... Only after I eat. That's it."

The nurse gave me a card which is supposed to keep track of my blood pressure. "Maybe you should come in every now and then to have your blood pressure checked, so we can see if it's normally this low. We just wanna be sure you're not anemic," she suggested.

So after that, she gave me the chart for the lab test and I drove over to Quest Diagnostics to get my blood test and urine test done.

The phlebotomist had trouble finding my veins. Not so surprising, really. People have always had trouble with that with me. I remember when I had to get my teeth pulled at the dentist, the nurses were poking me several times with a needle 'cuz they couldn't find my veins! It hurt. Well, same for the phlebotomist today. She couldn't find a spot on my right arm, so she took my left arm instead.

And as I watched my blood flow through the little tube into the test tube, I started feeling really light-headed. I was hoping my blood would flow faster so she'd have enough in the test tube. She was about to have me go to the restroom to collect urine...

"I'm feeling light-headed," I said.

I think she asked me if I fasted. Apparently, I didn't have to fast for this.

"It's probably because I haven't had anything to eat this morning," I admitted.

So she had me lay my head down, gave me a little towel to sniff which kept me from feeling nauseated. She gave me a pack of ice to put to my head too.

After a few minutes, I was better, and I did the urine test and left.

Well, at least I'm proud I'm getting all this testing done! Another step closer to the CNA program!

Now I'm currently looking for CPR classes. It has to be an American Heart Association CPR course for the Professional Rescuer. I hope I find the right class soon. I hope it's not too far, either.

I'm in physics class right now. Obviously, I'm not paying attention. All I'm worried about is that stats test tomorrow. :(

Gotta study tonight!


It's finally done. I've submitted my freakin' psych writing assignment through the Digital Drop Box on BlackBoard to my teacher. *sighhhhhhh*

At least all the assignments are done, so now I just gotta print out my physics homework, turn it in tomorrow, and then study stats all day tomorrow -- oh wait -- today and tomorrow. It's midnight now, so it's now Monday. Yeah, I got a stats test tomorrow, and going to the EBM club tomorrow.

I also got the physical exam today at 10:30 am at Chaffey. I wonder what they're gonna make me do. I'm so afraid it's gonna be scary and difficult. It's not supposed to be! Why am I so scared?

I gotta hurry and get to bed so I can do everything I need to do, but first, I gotta print out some stuff like the physics homework and my cute little Google calendar, so I don't forget anything I need to do during the week.

I like Google Calendar. :)

I can do this!!! Why oh why did this chapter have to be so long?

I think I just ate a Reese's peanut butter cup from last Halloween.

Didn't taste as good as I expected. It was slightly weird.


Finally! Done with chem and physics! But there's still psych to do, and that's a really big chunk of the load. Here's the stuff I need to do for psych:

2. Quiz
3. Discussion board questions
4. Writing assignment

Not just that. I still have stats to study for. D:

But it's still a bit of a relief to get some classes out of the way for now.

So random how Joe came by my house with three other friends with him. I forgot he was having dinner with them out here in Rancho. He was thoughtful to stop by and say hi. I had to quickly change out of my PJs so I could run downstairs. Eh. A nice break from my physics homework.

I'm debating whether I should reward myself with some chocolate for finishing my chem and physics today...

Forgot to post this pic in the last entry.

I'm so into Google right now. When I get bored, I just explore all the things Google has to offer. I thought I'd try Google's Web Accelerator and Google Desktop. I just downloaded both a few seconds ago.

I'm just taking a break from chemistry. Been watching those lectures last night and going to finish them all today. There are only five homework problems for the two chapters I need to do today. They're only conceptual questions, and they're not that hard, so I shouldn't have a problem with that.

Physics is next. A bunch of conceptual questions and a few actual problems. I plan to read chapter 5 before I do that stuff though. We just started chapter 6 in lecture, so it looks like I'm not that far behind. I may be able to finish all the homework for chem, but that doesn't mean I'm caught up!

Statistics is the class I'm totally behind on. I have to hurry and get physics and chem done today so I can at least start on the psych stuff. I have a lot more for psych this week because we have a writing assignment to do. I need to leave most of Sunday for studying stats. I wonder if I'll have some time to spare for shooting with my dad, just in case he wants to go back to Magnum Range.

Oh yes, I haven't updated you on my CNA stuff. I went to the meeting with CB that Thursday on October 4th. The instructors were older ladies, and they were really nice about it. They didn't make the CNA job sound too scary, but it already looks like it's hard work. I just feel better knowing that at least on of the CNA instructors are really nice and understanding. I got to ask all the questions I needed to ask, so now I understand all I need to do, and that helped CB too!

I'm pretty proud of myself that I'm getting started on all these many "quests" I need to do to get into the CNA program. I have to get my TB skin test done, my physical exam, lab tests, and get my uniform. Step one of the TB skin test is done, and I'm just waiting to go back to the Chaffey Health Services office for step two on Monday, October 22nd. This coming Monday, I'm going back there for the physical exam for visual and audio, and they'll tell me where to go for the lab tests (serology, urinalysis, and CBC - don't know what that is). What's most important is that I'll get my TB test done in time to register for the CNA classes on November 1st.

CB is currently working for his dad, but he doesn't want to. He wants to get a job down here in SoCal and be with ME! :) I love him! When I last talked to him on the phone, he was told me that him and his grandparents were talking about me! They were talking about how I was going into nursing. It really makes me happy that CB talks about me to his family. :)

After archery yesterday, I went to the health center to get my TB sking test step one read. As I walked out of the office, this guy was hitting on me. This surprised me a lot 'cuz I had absolutely no makeup on, I wasn't wearing anything cute at all, and he was Latino. His name's Jose. Hmph. Well, he wanted my number or wanted to give me his, but I just ended up giving him my less important e-mail,, instead. I acted like I was really busy - my excuse for not going out anytime soon. Weird.

Oh, so Brian (the guy fro Bass Pro Shops) came to archery again yesterday. Not as late as last week, but still late. He left early too. But he's a good instructor, I think. I saw that I shot a few arrows into the yellow center area of the target during this one round. I was proud of myself! I have to thank him for that, I guess. Or maybe it was just me. I dunno. I'm good!

When Brian was gonna leave he gave me a hug. It was a nice feeling mostly 'cuz all I could think about after was how big and soft he was.... o.O Like a bear. But he really is a big guy. He's only 18. Doesn't look like it. And he can't believe I'm 23. I can't believe he's taking seven classes at Chaffey. WTF. But it's cool how he can speak German fluently and can speak Russian too!

After archery and the health center yesterday, I went to Wing Stop, which was near IHOP. That place was surprisingly good! It's a nice small place, and their chicken wings are delicious. I ordered the same thing she ordered (she got there before I did) - lemon-pepper and garlic-parmesan, both kinds fried. You know I love fried chicken! This could actually be better than KFC or Church's Chicken!

We sat there eating chicken and talking about our schooling for our future careers. Good conversation.

I ended up finding out after that I had like seven voice messages in my phone. My phone was on silent, so yeah. About five messages from Mommy and Daddy, and two from CB. -_-

I brought the leftover chicken from Wing Stop back home. I gave them to my aunt, all still fresh and warm. Lucky her.

I walked out of physics lecture yesterday. On the way back to my car, this girl was walking behind me, talking on the cell phone to a friend. She was like, "This physics class is the most boring class on the planet. I don't care about how things move. I'll just move and not hit or make a dent in anything, and everything'll be fine!"

Hm, just one of those people who don't appreciate physics. Hearing her made me appreciate physics as well as the other subjects I'm taking. I'm even thinking right now about how I'm starting to appreciate chemistry, especially because I'll really need it as a nurse. I'll eventually learn to appreciate stats... Still not liking that class. Got a test for that on Tuesday. Great. Shouldn't be so bad if I get the studying done. I think the review that we had in the stats class on Thursday went pretty well. Things are probably easier than it looks. I know how to use my calculator to find X bar and the standard deviation, at least.

Man, I gotta get the videos we took in England on DVD too. Just need to get them out of the camcorder so I can use it for other fun things.

I stayed up 'til 3:00 am Thursday night scanning pics for Justin's film so I was soooooo sleepy yesterday.

Okay, I guess I'll get back to watching the biochem lectures now. I'm about a quarter way through chapter 15.

Let me add Ash, a classmate in archery to MySpace and give you some pics to see!

These four arrows were shot during one round. Excellent!

I just left those there 'cuz they look so good. I only took out the arrows that were not in the yellow to shoot again, hoping they'd join my four arrows in the center.

I got one more arrow in the yellow by the end of class!

I love boba at Noodle World!

Photoshoot with CB.

My gun target. I'm so proud of it!

And this is Daddy's.

Mommy bought me a churro at the swap meet. Mmm.... All that sugar... They're SO good!

I'm in the CSUSB library. This Asian lady trusted me enough to watch her stuff while she went to the restroom. I guess that's a good thing, that I look trustworthy enough.

It seemed like the internet problem was solved after I called Verizon. It was nice and speedy again, everything was normal. Couple hours later, I finished dinner and went upstairs to get back online. SLOW. AGAIN. Great.

On Friday, I was so pleased to have this photoshoot with CB. He takes the greatest pictures! So surprised he's so good at photography. He never does it much.

Oh man! This sucks! CSUSB doesn't let me upload anything! I can't send pics on Hello, I can't get on YIM, and I can't upload pics to this blog. >:O


At home, the internet's all slow, and CSUSB, it's blocking my uploads!!! Then how was I able to upload the video that I took at Daddy's work to YouTube then?


Whatever. I'll just post some pictures pertaining to this post later.

Anyway, Daddy took me to the gun range on Sunday morning. The nearest place I found was Magnum Range, which is around Vineyard and 9th. Looks like Daddy is going to enter a shooting competition with other Thai people. They're gonna be going to this gun range in Cerritos. But something's a bit screwed up - why are they letting some national gun champion from Thailand enter? He's won enough, and it's time to let the amateurs earn the prize. Other than that, looks like all the old Thai guys will have fun.

We walked into the range with the ear protection thingies and those paper targets. I wore safety glasses. Hm, even with the ear things on, it's still hella loud! I never imagined guns to be that loud. There were like maybe three other people in there, shooting. There was old guy, and another old guy with his wife in the same stall. I think she was shooting too. I had no idea what they were using though.

Daddy and I were using a .357 Magnum revolver with a 6" barrel. He's had that ever since before I was born. I never knew he had that. All I thought we had was the air pistol and that old black revolver which was always there at Daddy's work, but it was kinda taken apart.

Daddy let me watch him shoot first. He hung the target up, flipped the switch, and it zoomed along the cord all the way to the back of the room. Yep, he doesn't need to practice from up close. I suppose he's really as good as he says. I saw it. I agree, maybe he's a bit rusty. He hasn't been shooting for over 20 years.

He showed me how to load the ammo into the gun and how to hold it. I was so scared! It was a real gun, and this was my first time using a real gun! It was already scary enough hearing all the loud BANG! BANG! BANG! in the room. Startling. I'd say I did pretty well for my first time. I started off shooting at the target halfway down the room, and in the end, Daddy figured I was ready to shoot it from maximum distance. Not bad, as you'll see later, once I post the pic up. :D

Yeah, so when I was shooting the gun, I found that it didn't sound as loud and startling when you're the one shooting. When I watch my dad shoot, it's SO freaking loud! Not just that - I see FLAMES come out from the sides of the gun! WTF? I guess gunpowder does that.

Everything was all new to me. It was really exciting.

When we were done, we put our stuff back on the wall, safety glasses and ear protection things. The shop was run by Koreans, it seems. There was his old guy, and his son, Ryan, who's a second-year at UCSD, majoring in Bio-Physics. Of course, I wasn't surprised that Mommy mentioned that I graduated from UCR and Christy's at Berkeley.

Daddy showed Ryan our targets. Ryan sounded impressed. "I can't even shoot that good," he said. "With a rifle and a scope, maybe."

My dad wasn't sure if he was joking or not, but eh. I, myself would say I'm pretty good. I mean, those other people in the room were shooting humongous targets that were up really close. We were the only ones with our targets things all the way in the back of the room. Those old guys were shooting too close, my dad says. The guy in the stall nearest to us was shooting so badly that he hit the metal clips twice and part of the bullet would hit my dad's forehead. WTF. Daddy didn't say anything about it 'til after we left. Daddy and I figured those guys in there didn't really know how to shoot.

"They weren't really practicing," I said. "They were just shooting." -_-

We went to the swapmeet after 'cuz Mommy wanted to buy fruit. We bought some roasted peanuts to eat while shopping there. I had to make sure I got a churro! I love churros! I love how they're covered with all this sugar.... YUM! :P

Yesterday, I had a photoshoot with Tyler's brother, Travis. Pretty fun. I dressed up a bit, and looked my best, and we went to Red Hill Park to shoot some photos of me. Travis has all these nice professional lenses and equipment. He's getting pretty good, considering he's learned most of it from forums and books. I can't wait to see how those photos turned out. I'll be watching him on DeviantART.

I can't wait to do another photoshoot with my CB! <3

Dang. This blog entry is freakin' long. There's only one person who reads it, so I hope you enjoy every single word of it!

I think I better head back to my car now. I only ate half of my McDonald's 10-piece Chicken McNugget meal - I just ate the fries. I decided to save the rest as dinner before my stats class.

Stats class - I'm not liking it right now. It's my own fault for not paying attention in class. But this class doesn't give me homework or anything, so it makes it really hard to study for this class. I really would like to get a better grade than I did back at UCR.

Okay, time to go. I guess I'll post a bunch of pics in the next entry... If the internet permits.

Finally. I can resume my internet life again.


I gotta call Verizon DSL.

I am SO freaking frustrated with the internet right now! Why is it being SO SLOW???????????????? I need to freakin' submit my homework online!

To ease my frustration, I've been looking through the Scrap City book. I just love all the art in there. So artistic and meaningful. That is what I want to do with my scrapbooking.

Ugh, I need to hurry and finish this homework! I'm almost done with my psych discussion questions and then I gotta do the 20-question quiz. Next, I gotta finish watching the chem lecture for chapter 13 and do the homework. ALL OF THESE ARE ONLINE! OMG! I'm still so happy to have online classes, but I'm NOT happy with my internet today.

Going to the CNA info meeting today. Really nervous just thinking about it. It's going to be hard training and a hard job. We're dealing with people who can't fully help themselves, so .... It's hard because I can barely take care of myself. But I want to help people too.

I hope they train me well in how to make someone's bed, how to give someone a bath, how to clean up. I'm so afraid of doing something wrong, or hurting someone. :( Oh man.

And CB "totalled" his car last night. He was fully awake though. I hope it wasn't because he was day-dreaming of me.

I hope to give him a nice, long hug today. He needs that.

The phone freaking annoys the hell out of me. I HATE the phone.

Posted from my cell phone! Lol.

Ha! I love documenting my life so much, I do it from my cell phone too!

I want books. Not just any kind of book. I'm not looking for reading books anymore (have enough of that!). Coloring books!

People usually think that coloring books are for children only. Sure, because children need it the most for developing their cognitive and motor skills. But me and CB found this awesome coloring book at Michaels. It's just awesome, the ideas so random, and so cute! I was not surprised at all when I saw the author's name, Taro Gomi. Japanese. These Japanese people come up with the most interesting, cute things all the time.

So yeah, I'm adding these books to my wishlist! I wanna get one for myself, and another for my POOP!

What's interesting is that Taro Gomi wrote this book I read as a kid, Everyone Poops. Lol. It was one of the many books I checked out when I first had access to a library.

I also checked this book out too. =) I picked interesting books to read. The Gas We Pass is not by Taro Gomi, but still written by a Japanese author.


I'm gonna be going to Justin's place to watch Descent while having Blast o' Butter popcorn. Dang. How much butter could that popcorn possibly have? Would it be enough for me? Would it be too much?

Okay... I just read the comments that people left to my post in the LJ nursing students community last night. Looks like being a CNA will be the most accessible job to get me the EXP for being a nurse. Better to start with the "dirty work" first than to end up being disgusted by it later. I gotta get used to it sometime.

I can't forget to call Chaffey about the CNA meetings so I can get started!


I'm so worried about how I'm going to get experience or work so the nursing schools will like me. And once I find a place to work or volunteer, I'm know I'm gonna be scared to death - I'm so afraid of doing something wrong! I don't want to get yelled at. Working with patients is a serious thing. I don't want to make them die. Okay, I think I'm getting too far in these thoughts.

I need comfort. I need CB. He's the only one who makes me feel better.

But he's working. He has a job. He has no problem finding jobs, and he's not afraid to work! That's the opposite of me!

I admit it. I'm afraid to work. I'm afraid of being wrong. I'm afraid of being criticized. I just want to make everyone happy.

Seems like this is the thing I have problems with most - making everyone happy.

I need someone to take good pics of me in that new jacket!! Need to find time!

YAY!!! I finally got the new top that I wanted from CryoFlesh. It's called the X-Odus Shrug Top. I love all the clothing on that site. Their designs are just my style - dark and futuristic. It's so hard to find clothing that I like nowadays.

Maybe the pictures I took would look a little better if I had fresh makeup on. I was so excited when CB told me that he was gonna order it for me! :D He's the greatest!
I got a "shit-load" of stuff shipped to me today - this top, two cool scrapbooking books, and the Colony 5 CD, which I'm listening to right now. I like this CD a lot. I got the Dawn of Ashes CD earlier this week. I also got a bunch of textbooks delivered to me in the past week. Am I gonna be able to catch up on all this reading and homework?
I'm pretty cool with all my classes this quarter. I'm taking physics, biochem, developmental psych, stats and archery. I just don't like stats. It's boring, and even though I miss math sometimes, this statistics stuff does not look too fun. But I gotta know this stuff when I'm a nurse. *sigh* And I really gotta know the biochem stuff. Very important when I'm working as a nurse.
Ooo, I can't wait to find a great time to wear that X-Odus!! It's really good for cold weather, and I like cold weather. It's better than hot.

Haven't done much in my physics class so far. But being in here, and seeing the people in the class, it's like, sometimes I wanna be in a more advanced class. I'd probably be working with different students. But why would I wanna do some harder class when I don't need it?

I like this class mainly because the parking spot is not so difficult, and the building isn't crowded like Jack Brown Hall is. Thank goodness. I hope the lab for this class is at least interesting. Lecture didn't seem all that great. But then again, we didn't go over very much in class.

I kinda wish I took the same physics classes as POOP does. That way, maybe I could help her. She'd study better if she had someone to study with!

So happy about my latest scrapbook layout! Just finished it this morning. This is my third layout ever, and if this keeps up, after making several layouts, I'd probably be moving to advanced scrapbooking!

I love this art form of scrapbooking. It's just like graphic design. I was gonna be a graphic design major at Cal Poly Pomona, but thought that computer science was the more intelligent choice, especially because I decided to go to UC Riverside for the UC system. (Plus, my old best high school friend, Matthew, was going there too.)

I can't believe I was gonna be a graphic design major. That would put me in the art department. I can't see myself there. I'm afraid that doing art as a career would make the art grow dull.

Yay. I'm so happy with this layout. The ladies on the Creating Keepsakes message board seemed to like it too. I'm glad I did a lot of journaling. Better than forgetting my experiences completely. I just can't forget, though, that I should scrapbook for myself, and for not for my viewers. But of course, I like it when I get compliments from people, especially from those who are more experienced.

I wanna do another Maple Story layout next. More of a fun thing. It'd be like practice!

Oh, and we got the Xyron 510 yesterday! I love that machine so much! It's not electronic - it's mechanical. It's light. That's what I love about it. So simple - all you have to do is slide the paper in, turn the handle clockwise, and and out comes the paper a sticker!

I can make virtually anything that's flat, into a sticker. Here's the first thing I made into a sticker:

So there's my first sticker, a Maple Story icon. Very pixelated.

All this time, I've been thinking about getting a macro lens for my camera. I found a nice alternative to that: My old camera's lens.

OMG. It's been here all this time, and I never realized I could use it. Happy about that! Now I can take better portraits.... *cough* of myself....

I found this cute stamp at Michaels.

Cute little duckie that makes me think of my POOP!

I feel so, so confused right now. I don't even know what I'm confused about.

I feel very organized now that I've set up my calendar with my class schedules. I will ace these classes too!

I need to get a bow stringer. I really wanna shoot more.

I still want that Xyron sticker maker machine from Michaels. It should still be on sale for 40% off. And I still want to scrap something so bad. Still so afraid of messing things up and not liking it. But scrapbooking is supposed to be an art of making keepsakes that show how I progress and grow.

Definitely not good.

I was over at JoAnn with CB and all of a sudden, my mom called saying she was coming home to take me to San Bernardino's court to do something. Forgot what. So we rushed back home being stressed out, dropped me off, and I put the second laptop away.

They're home now. I don't know what's happening next, and I don't know what's going on other than they're seeing a lawyer.

I wanna go back shopping at Michael's. I just feel like buying something neat to make myself feel better. I know, I'm being girly.

I saw the Xyron machines on sale at Michael's tody! I may be lucky!

I'm so, so tired... I didn't even eat much for lunch... Maybe it's because they're taquitos. After going with Daddy to Joe's mom's garage place to pick up the BMW, I headed home, and impulsively went to Michael's. I've been looking at getting the Xyron machine. Not sure which model yet, but I'll probably discuss that with CB later. I was thinking of buying the small version to play with first today.

Man! I wanna scrap something so bad! I wanna create something! But I've just gotta STOP being so afraid of creating a bad page! I remember some cards I've created, and wasn't too happy about them. But hey, it's okay - I'm still a beginner.

Pretty soon, I'll find my own style, and incorporate some trends into my scrapbooking. I have a idea what my style is, and I'm sure it's not always gonna be that girly style, which is all I see in the stores right now. I wish there were more scrapbooking supplies that go more towards the "dark" side. You know... Like goth.

There are already a few events I want to scrap - the Assemblage 23 concert, the lunar eclipse last month, and some other random things... Spur of the moment things.

So... Yeah. I found those swirly clear stamps online on for $9.99.

Daddy has been nagging and nagging me about selling things on eBay. It's really getting on my nerves. All they every do is make me feel bad. My self-esteem couldn't be any worse. Or is it really all just in my head?

No one in this family's ever happy. Christy is never happy. My parents are never happy. I'm not happy.

Nice family.

OMG. I just ordered my first bow from Cabela's online. Wow. I can't wait!

I also gotta get started with eBay 'cuz Daddy is very serious about selling things, particularly clothes, there. I bet they're gonna look for a mannequin or dressform soon so they can put all my old clothes on it or something.

Looks like we're going to Noodle World now. It's all Mommy's idea.

Man, I've got this sore throat and a cough. Definitely got it from both of my parents.

Archery on Friday was really fun. Didn't learn much, but still fun. I really want to stick with the sport. Luckily, my parents are somewhat supportive about it, and they saw I wanted to practice, so they wanted me to look for an archery range or club so I could practice there. Unfortunately, the closest one is in Chino, and they don't have bows for us to rent - I'd have to bring my own - which I don't have yet. I really want to get one of my own soon.

So later, Daddy figured that going to the range wouldn't be worth it. He'd rather have me practice in the backyard! We went to Chick's Sporting Goods today, but no archery equips there. Right after, we headed straight for Bass Pro Shops Outdoor World. BIG shop. Good thing I went there with CB on Friday, otherwise I'd be lost.

We talked to a guy working in the archery section of the store, Brian. Apparently, he's in the same archery class at Chaffey with me! He was telling me how our teacher really didn't know anything she was talking about. Great. Now I gotta worry about just passing that class. But what he said wasn't too much of a surprise, though. I was already thinking how strange it was that there wasn't much to learn about technique and stance for the first day. I'm sure there's a right way to stand, draw, aim and release...

Brian recommended that I get a PSE Buckeye. I've read about those being good for beginners on LJ before. Plus, there's good reviews, AND it's on sale right now on Cabela' I'll have my eye on that!

After looking at the archery targets and stuff, we looked at guns. So, it wasn't a surprise that soon after lunch, Daddy dug out his air gun from the storage shed. Who knows how long ago that gun's been around! It's a Hammerli air pistol, made from Germany.

In no time, Daddy said I now know how to shoot a gun! He said I had a steady hand, and that's great, for it being my first time! I hit the Pepsi can on my first shot. Amazing!

It looks like my precision is good, and I need to work a little more on accuracy. Daddy wants to take me to fire real guns at a range in the future. I know it's gonna be a little harder 'cuz of the recoil and stuff.

Man, I've been SO freaking tired all day today. I didn't even wanna get out of bed, but MOMMY likes to come in and tell me to go downstairs for breakfast all the time! I need a break!

It was a high of 108 degrees today, and it's gonna be 108 again tomorrow. Are we really going to Redondo Beach tomorrow like Mommy said? I didn't even shave yet. Too tired in the shower, plus I couldn't find my bottle of shaving gel. -_-

The night of the eclipse was a very beautiful night. And because Justin was there, watching it with me, the experience was one of the best I've ever had. It was rather romantic, I have to say, and I'm very sure he'd agree as well. It's like, everytime we're together, we're always spending our time reminiscing about our high school days.

But it wasn't just Justin who made the lunar eclipse so wonderful. That night was also the first time I saw a shooting star. I made a wish....not exactly sure what it was, but I'm sure it was about happiness in my future. A lot of things went through my mind during that short little moment - being happy with someone, and getting my Master's in nursing... Sounds like those things are the most important to me since that was the only thing in my mind at the time. It's what comes to mind right away when I first think about "making a wish."
Other than the shooting star, I was so proud of myself that I was able to make out more constellations in the sky. I've never been out so late before, so I saw things other than the Big Dipper and Cassiopeia. I saw the beautiful cluster of stars, called Pleiades, or Seven Sisters. Pleiades always makes me think about how Justin had a friend who talked to him about them - how he "came from those stars." o.O
Anyway, looking at my planisphere, Justin and I were able to point out the Northern Cross in the sky, which was part of Cygnus, the swan. Even though it's not very hard to find at all, it made me pretty happy that we saw Orion in the eastern sky. We'll be seeing that more in the winter.

I'm happy that I was able to stay up for the whole eclipse. Photographing (and Justin filmed it with his awesome new professional camera - $3000+) it made everything so worth it.

Even after all that, after Justin had gone home, and I was about to sleep, I saw something shining brightly in the eastern sky as the light of dawn was approaching - Venus, now the morning star. It was an evening star just last month or so. Ending the night with Venus made it all seem like such a dream. Wow...

Been getting a lot of things done this week. I've been waking up really early to get to Chaffey and CSUSB to get myself added in these classes I want to take. I'm constantly adding and dropping, adding and dropping. It's almost complete. Now I just need to make sure I get into CHEM-208, Survey of Human Biochemistry, at CSUSB. It's going to be great if everything goes my way. CHEM-208, is an online class, Dr. Pederson told me. What a relief that was. Less driving for me.

I'm also taking another online class at Chaffey for PSYC-25, Developmental Psychology. This is my first time taking online classes. Hopefully things are easier this way.
Man. I should've been asleep long ago. I have archery at Chaffey tomorrow morning. I'm really excited about it. It must be fun! It's been a while since I've tried something completely new. And archery is definitely something new. I don't know anyone who practices this sport!

Well, I'm off to bed. I don't wanna feel like crap doing something cool.

Man, I don't know what happened to this blog layout after I uploaded the images to this blog. It got all messed up! My paragraphs were spaced like miles apart!! OMG! Hopefully it's okay now. -__-'


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